ChedeBAh!

old memories

2010-04-20T17:03:00.002+08:00

I went into multiply just now. after so long i dint log in.

I wanted to search for old pics of mine, to c which hairstyle suits me.

den, it hits me. Pictures.

Him. Me. Us.

and i tot i've got over it. Clean.

It seems that i am rong.

I miss my old self. I looked so happy. So youthful. Full of zest.

I dint care abt othersm all I cared, was him and kids. Us.

I dint have to werry abt whether i have enuff to last us till end of the mth.

It seems everything fell into places perfectly.

Now, his pieces are perfectly fitted for his new life.

I am still lost to where i am gng.

But i am glad... I have kids by my side.

It is hard werk. But still i am glad.

Its emo time again.

Perserverence yields success

2010-03-08T14:48:00.002+08:00

I dont noe if others face de same probs.

Ma lil gerl isnt as close to the father.. even doh i try to encourage her to be.. sometimes i even force to meet him..

And the father now is giving up hope bkoz of dis..

what other ways can i tackle dis prob?

my son noes lil of wats gng on.. so i have no werries with him.

If any of u guys noes wat to do.. or may hv some advice.. please drop ur 2 cents werth..

ends wit.

tears

2009-12-30T00:44:00.001+08:00

for once...

I jus wanna cry it all without feeling guilty.

Without feeling that i am a weakling.

without feeling more pain at the end of it...

jus for once.

2009-12-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

Recently, there was a lot of report on tiger's infidelity.

I always believed that its one's own responsibilty to noe where you stand.. when you are married.

but are ppl getting more laxed now? abt u dey wanna be with?

Shoud singapore govt have penalties for dos hu has affairs?

Or maybe dos hu have affairs need to go counselling.. b4 they are 'eligible' to remarry?

marriage is a wonderful union between 2 ppl. there is so much love, that they are willing to take the next step together.

but when this love is being tested by ppl hu are inconsiderate. lust. and sluts..
it may just falter.

Pain that comes with the shame is utterly unberable.

One may lose the partner. Kids may lose the parent.

so please, do think, in the end.. its the kids dat suffer.

Freaking adults (even though u might b that totally stoopid and brainless), please think for them.

DOnt follow ur heart and ur lust.. for moment of folly.. when other have to pay for it.

to fellow souljas out there..

The pain of losing your love one and the shame is un bearable..

But stand tall, for all these will pass.

You can never get over it.

BUt you must go through it.

When all that is done, you can look back

Smile, for this lesson WILL make you a stronger woman.

and i hope.. i will come to the part.. where i can smile again.

congratulations

2009-12-14T21:11:00.001+08:00

got engaged.
Congratulations.

dats a fast move.

only dat..
i m not toking abt me..

my past..

2009-11-23T18:09:00.002+08:00

Went out yesterday with one of my goodest frend, amoi, and family to botanical garden.

On the way home, we had to pass by Whampoa.

Yupp, my old place. We stop by one of the shops to get an item for the kiddos.

And all i can c, was me and him.. walking down that road.. with kids.

ANd i can still remember vividly the matrimonial home.

Damm i can still remember the smell..

I miss the calmness of my old place. The calmness of maself.

All i could say.. i miss whampoa. Where all the memories lies.

news

2009-11-07T17:01:00.002+08:00

He was a good husband, A good dad.

i had love him with all my heart.

I still do care abt him and respect him.

He did a mistake and i am sure he regretted it.

Lets all be happy for him. and wish him all the best for everything.

Take care awak.. I wish you all the best.

Whatever it is, I will always be there if u need me.

Love - me

incidents

2009-10-31T15:42:00.002+08:00

this isnt a story exactly about me.

it abt a frend, whom i totally feel for.

my frend, let put it as "Iz"..

at werk, or anywhere else, u can see dat iz bubbly.

always the spark. to ignite any fun fyre.

den outta sudden 'iz' tried to commit suicide.

recuparating now, thank god nothing to major happened.

reason: hates the dad. never contribute to family. sleeping with the mistress.

there are a few lessons we can learn from here.

before you do anything, do tink, koz its a ripple effect.

for those gng after married ppl, u r not only affecting their loved ones.

it might even affect the person u wanna b with.

Losing kids or money for alimony. stress with things dats gng on, cant concentrate on werk or self.

and to dos hu think dat committing suicide is the ez way out, maybe for u. but for your love ones? its a lifetime pain.

i told 'iz', always remember.

if u tink u r gng thru bad patch, there are ppl gng thru 10x werse den u. and dey r facing it. it may be painful and difficult, but once u go thru it.. u can look back.. and its a story of a life time. and do be proud, that u manage to get thru it.

to iz, there are ppl hu love u out there babe.
frends hu r willing to listen. and help.
ask, and it would be given.

take care.

Dear Monster

2009-10-07T18:08:00.002+08:00

I was a housewife. A dutiful one.

I dint have a life, koz it all revolved around him.

And he had affairs.

Once it was claimed that i over reacted. Its common for gurls to call 'stars'

Since he has fans.

But 4am? Use ya head lah..

Now, i am working.. a lil erratic hours, someone is saying bkoz of the timing, he is turning wayward.

So mana satu ni?

Akoo duduk rumah aja.. trying to raise a family.. i over reacted when he had an affair. AKoo kerja with main intention to help family, sebab tu he lari.

Senang cakap, SERIUSLY babe.. if u dont noe anything. Jgn masok frame leh? so what u noe him longest period. Dat doesnt mean u noe everything.

I am sad, undeniable but ITS ALL OVER MONSTER.. no use blaming. Like we have both agreed. Me and him. DOnt blame. Just werk hand in hand now to raise the kids. So please shut ur damm gap!

Hope & Despair.

2009-10-03T13:39:00.001+08:00

I have learned two lessons in my life:

First, there are no sufficient literary, psychological, or historical answers to human tragedy, only moral ones.

Second, just as despair can come to one another only from other human beings,

Hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings.

I need to Hope. I need Hope.

Love notes

2009-10-01T16:52:00.002+08:00

Especially to dos hu spread the 'love notes'..

READ THIS---->

Yes, i do agree dat my dressing, at times, can b skimpy.

Yes, i do agree dat my hair color is so not the malyu.

(eh wait, melayu nowadays color all blonde. so either i am not melayu enuff, or i am way not melayu, figuring..)

But dat doesnt shape me as a person. How i express myself isnt how i am as a person.

Or how i am as a mom.

Kids ARE very important to me. VERY.

SO please dont even try.. to tell or even say dat kids shudnt b with me.

I am not the best mother in the world. undeniable. HOWEVER, i am trying my very best to b one for ma kids.

I would do anything to give dem wat they need. ANYTHING.

SO pleaseeeeeeeeeee, dont intefere. Koz i fucking hate it. BIG time.

2009-09-30T15:40:00.000+08:00

A stiff apology is a second insult....

The injured party does not want to be compensated because she has been wronged;

she wants to be healed because she has been hurt..

strength

2009-09-29T11:34:00.002+08:00

thee counting the days till its over, to start a new life with her.

God, let me have the same courage.

For i want to feel love and and be in one, again.

Genuinely.

2009-09-22T01:10:00.001+08:00

To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with
no intent on looking down at the bottom.
You don't care its going to HURT LIKE HELL
when u hit the bottom, all you care about is that
for just for that short period of time...
you feel like you could fly..
Thank you for letting me fly.. it was wonderful.
and it does hurt like hell.

2009-09-12T17:41:00.001+08:00

He did not mean to depress me, rather to free me, from expectations which inspire bitterness. It is consoling, when love has let me down, to hear that happiness was never part of the plan.

moment of truth

2009-08-28T14:57:00.002+08:00

It painful to find out that the person u love, doesnt love u anymore.

But it hurts more to noe and c the person you love, love someone else.

I've always been gng thru uncertainties.. but i had hopes. It could always go de way i wanted.or hoped for..

Now, i am over the other side of the wall.. i began to get all mix feelings.

Was this ma fault? Was it his fault i was like dat? Was it ma fault he was like dat?
We cant salvage. And i dowant to argue. pointing fingers. I tink i would go thru de depression phase. I can never get over it.. i jus have to go thru it. I hope HE would gv me the strength i need. Frends and family.. thank you for being there.

"i was tied to your promises. I did all i could. U were my pillar and hope. I am sorry that it turned out like dis. I miss u, for 9 yrs i cant let it go in 9 secs. You will always be in my prayers and tots.. always loving u."

Now.. the new journey begins with tears, with more uncertainties laying ahead..

feelings

2009-08-22T12:12:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of ramadhan.. and the feelings of being lonely actually sinks in.
I have to face another 30 days of it. and the bang would b the ferst day of Eid.

I was reading back my old posts in ma blog. I knew he was once ma world. But i never realise.. how much all i want was him. All i tink abt was him. All i can gush abt was him. I dint lose him. I lost my world. My everything. He took everything dat i have total belief in. Its sad. I cant deny.
If he is happy with the life he has chosed, lets all be happy for him. I am glad he is. Let me love him the way i should. To have, but not to hold.

There are ppl hu actually tinks that i deserve it. Some said.. they knew its coming. Different ppl have diff tots. and i really dont care if any of u streotyping me.
Its sad enuff to lose the feeling of being loved, and for ppl to tink i mustnt love anyone else, is crappy. Yes, I have 2 kids. I gave birth to em. But i still have feelings. I am not gonna find anotther father. They already have 1. Watever it is he is still their father. And no one can change it.I wanna go on dates. I wanna have that feelings of being loved or at least cared for..I am not gonna abandon my duties as a mom. And i am always very upfront abt me having kids. Kos they are everything to me.I noe there are loads of consequences to watever actions i take. I do weight em before i do anything..

All i wanna say is.. I really dont care what u tink. However, dont stereotype. Rmours are werse than u having a tryst.

More tears. More Drama. Lets go.. cannot Disco.

hatred.

2009-07-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

Just bkoz i kept quiet, it doesnt mean i am afraid.

Doesnt mean i give in, i am weak.

but doesnt mean its gonna stay dis way if u start to disrespect me.

and listen...

i've never hated anyone to this level. but i believe this couple.. are gonna break the record.

i am not the best person u wanna mess ard with.

and.. so what if i am a mother..?

I AM FUCKING PROUD.. of how MY kids.

MINE.

How i look. I may not b gorgeous or pan-asian looking. but hey.. i aint the last in the chain.

so.. u go on with ur lfe.

Koz i wanna go on with my life. Not to look back a lil bit.

fin.

i am a lucky bitch

2009-07-09T00:58:00.002+08:00

I was trying my best to mask my true feelings regarding the events that are happening in my life. It so depressing, yet I have to show everyone.. dat i am ok.
I am strong. Well.. i noe i have to be strong for kids. But its tiring to put a up facade.

But due to this unfortunate event, I actually found out some good stuffs.

1stly, my lil gerl, she is so damm smart. FREAKING smart. Bkoz of her comforting words, that i decided to take the path that i am taking. She may be only 6, but she can make a '21' year old lady think. Ponder over her lil conversation. She gave me strength.

My lil boy, a lil difficult to understand the situation. a lil affected, but he is the reason why i wanna work hard to maintain my sanity.

However.. i am so proud, to say, that i am the luckiest bitch alive. No one can ever get frends like i have. My gfs especially!

Poonat,Horny J.I., Lecak L.S., Emo, Teks, Baby of the group, Amoi,Girl,Bai,along and some others..F*ck u bitches. I love u all to de max. If tattoos were allowed, i would have tattoed each of u bitches name..

We had planned a lil getaway.. to KL. Then when tings happened.. i couldnt afford shit. I had to forgo the trip. They.. paid for me! can u imagine dat?? Poonat said, u being our frend is enuff for us to help u. PLus, i had to b there for them to excercise..! Horny J.I. paid for ma plane, Poonat paid coach, and the rest tokok for the room. Lecak L.S. spend as much time she could ard me.. so i wouldnt feel lonely..

my good frend hu jus got back from Qatar, out of werk.. offered to lend me money fo the trip. He said i nid to get away.. I declined. P.Pa offered to gv me some spending money, i declined too.

Then i took up a 2nd job. Timing was kinda odd. So i wanted to use back the bike i shared with ma old neighbour. we use to b very close. Was toking to him. He was shocked y i am working dbl. He felt bad i tink, dat he also need to use de bike for werk.. he offered to down me a 2nd hand bike. to help me travel ez. I said no.

So.. i lost a man that use to be my world, the love of ma life, the father of ma kids..but
I gain true frends. true love.

Once again people...

from the bottom of ma heart.. i thank you for being part of ma life.

i love each and every one of u.

back to square one

2009-06-19T15:07:00.002+08:00

I so wanted it.

I believe dat it is wat i want it.

frends and family even agreed.

The moment, it is to become a reality.

I became confused.

scared.

Is this how it is suppose to be?

I need my prayers now. and yours too.

GOD, gv me strength and the path that I should take, for the goodness of ma kids and me.

I need to disappear.

I am a fan on myself.

2009-06-14T19:36:00.002+08:00

i have a lil story to share.

A lil gerl got married. Stayed home.bore kids. Hubby work. Happy family.

So dats wat lil gerl tot.

Behynd de innocence, Hubby had other agendas.

Lil gerl got depressed. Dint noe how to handle. With help from frens, family and her pillars, she managed to get over it.

Went thru the divorce. Not long after dat, lil gerl decided to gv hubby a chance koz of kids.

trust was never earned.

a yr later, history repeated. with jucier details.

even with experience, lil girl is still as depressed.

and guess wat, newbie reads ma blog.

dang!

alooo world

2009-04-30T19:56:00.004+08:00

heya peeps..
i noe i havent been updating.

so many tings happened.

went fer short hols.

sold off ma place.

move in to ma mom's place, den ma dad retired.

so we gotta move outta dat house.

to their own house.

i noe its confusing.

koz i am too!!

mukahahaha.

den me werk.

take up so much of ma time.

so.. dats de reason y.. i dont have much time to update.

plus der are so many ppl out there hu noes more abt me den maself!

so asked dis ppl.. abt me.. and like i said.. i dont even noe it exist.

kepo giler nyer...

so fer now.. i am done blogging. i am so ngantuk..

dis feelings

2008-12-29T02:02:00.002+08:00

its nearly de end of the yr.

so many things had happened.

some made me stronger. some made me crazier.

some r happy. some devastating.

i was hoping dat 09' would b a gd yr fer me.

but i m not too sure if its happening.

will c where dis road leads me to.

but i really wanna b a better mom fer ma kids.

things dat had happened to me may have swayed me away fr dng so.

i m cutting down on ma social life a lil bit.

get a full time job. b gd at it. i will prove dat i aint 'zilch'

and dat i can b successful.

defination of successful: able to juggle kids, werk, and life.

i wanna b a happier me. and i wanna love maself. de way i ought to.

den maybe, others would love me too. de way i ought to loved.

longing..

2008-12-04T00:55:00.002+08:00

i hardly blog nowdays.. koz i dont have much to say..
i had been to hell. back. one step away fr insanity..
thanks to ma kids and frends.. i manage to scrape thru.
some ppl might tink, i deserve wat i got. some ppl might tink
dey forsee it cuming.some ppl say its ma own dng.
watever it is, i lead dis life, ony i noe the true feelings.
the truth of this story.the truth abt me.
typically.. ppl sterotype.

club.dressing = bitches.

i really dont care wat other tink abt me.
ALL i really care... is abt ma kids.
i do wat i hav to do fer kids. attend to dem. care for them.
how i do it.. is my way. even if i party, i ensure dat ma kids are sleep.
put in the care of ppl whom i trust ma life with. my parents.
i am after all a person. hu have feelings. ppl out there.
u can continue spreading rumours abt me.

so far, tings r picking up positively. even doh i may not be the one positive.
i am still unsure of the paths dat i shud take. hopefully, 2009, would b de start to a gd yr.for me. fer u. fer everyone.

happy holidays ppl.

purleese!

2008-11-05T01:56:00.002+08:00

recently.. received many hate/dislikes/slutty/bitchy comments.

Readers hu noes or doesnt noe me.. u r free to read wat ever i wrote.

U r free to drop ur comments ABT ME SOLELY. However, if u do write something dat isnt right. I may take actions, which is crappy lah. Slandering isnt cool ppl.

Dont comment anything on ma kids. On ma family. Other den dat.. u can write watever u feel like it. i seriously dont care.

Dis is jus a virtual page. U readers are just virtual to me.

SO readers, happy reading. And have a gd day.

:)

sick?

2008-10-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

i am having dis problem.. And it kinda affecting my confidence. I believe. And i noe i m fat.

I noe.. Rambling abt it doesnt make any 2 diff 2 ma size. I ought 2 do sumting abt it. But.. I juz wanna let it all out.. Its ma blog afta all.. I feel so crappy!! Argggh! Been on diet.. But it doesnt seem 2 work.. Wanna go gym. But afta work tyred liao. I take 1hr 2 choose an outfit. And usually.. I end up using previous outfits.. Da 1s i usually wear..

I seriusly need help wit dis body. And ma brains.

feelings

2008-10-08T01:58:00.002+08:00

To know ur love one had an affair wit a stanger wasnt bad enuff..

What happens if that 3rd party was ur own gd frend?

A family Frend? A frend u've been der when she needed u? A frend whom u think would never stab ur back..

How is one suppose to react? Who is to b blame in this situation??

Y is men never satisfied? Y do they always go fer the one dat look like shit. Behave Like shit. Thinks like shit.

Right now.. i cant tink so well. I cant even write wat i really wanna say. I seriously need to get out of town.

I need a break from all dis drama.

anyone .. help?

a new feeling

2008-09-17T03:25:00.002+08:00

Its time like this.

In this season.

where i feel so diff.

So lonely.

I noe it my choice.

But feeling of wanting.

and to be wanted.

just crept up to me.

i tot i manage to overcome it.

Not realising.

A tear drop on my pillow.

selamat berposa

2008-09-06T00:18:00.001+08:00

ok .. gd mth.. holy mth..

so frends and family.. semlamat berposa.

good luck for the mth..

take care!

OMG

2008-08-18T15:19:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION: NANA

babe.. i really dunno wat u want fr me.

u knew dat i oready found out abt that acct.

ISD INC on friendster.

Do u realise dat u r de 3rd party in my marriage?

Do u noe dat u r dat slut? WHo offered nuthing else to him other den Sex?

I tried to walk away fr u.. without even meeting u. Without calling u.

i jus wanted to walk away fr dis nightmare.

U put on ur blogs abt ur realtionship with him.

Den u dlt it away.

But do u noe.. it still leave traces?

U created dis acct. Pretending to b him.

I said i dont care.

Den u change the pic.

U and Him kissing.

So?

u showed his whole face. cut off urs?

Wat The Fuck?

If u r dat daring.. cum on..

Show the whole world!

SHow dat face of urs.

I just wanna say dis to u NANA.

I DONT CARE WAT U PUT ON THAT ACCT.

Dat kinda pic wont make me go down crumbling.

I am a strong woman..

I have my pillars.

Aiyohhhhhhh!!

2008-08-04T11:21:00.003+08:00

Aiyoh babe!

Didnt i say gv up?

I dont care at all lah.

So wat u have a tattoo of his name?

(oh it's big!)

So wat he regrets miting me ferst

(dats wat u say)

U think u noe him well?

If u do.. u would have known.. he noe nuts abt creating a frienster acct

with that kind of background.

SO urs ISD INC acct.. go change it to Ms Dillusional INC.

Oh one more thing..

U think by telling him i slept with another man

He's gonna leave me?

Here is one thing u dont noe.

I do not condone, at all, fucking-wit-anyone.

I have been dedicated to him n ony him.

I AM MARRIED. OR was. to him.

(watever)

He noes dat. Thats y he noes, u r jus telling him crap.

Yup, he told me dat himself darl.

So please.. go get a mirror.

C urself. N compare it.

U may think u look better den me.

U may think u look sexier den me.

U may think u have wat he wants.

But think again..

Hu he left? Hu he doesnt wanna let go?

B4 i end..

I didnt beg him to stay.

I want him to leave.

I even said dat i wont stop him being with de kids.

He can have babies with u for all i care.

All he said .. "i ony have our kids. N u r mine."

( to me ah.. not to u)

So U stop viewing my profile.

STop trying to b him acct.

Let it go babe.

hate

2008-07-29T20:09:00.002+08:00

I hate the fact dat i love him.

I hate the fact that i miss him.

I hate the fact that i want him.

Too bad.. Hatred conquers the love.

Too bad.. Love isnt the factor anymore.

Its wats best for me.

Its wats best for my kids.

I hate the fact that i dunnoe wat to do.

shuld i?

2008-07-27T20:04:00.004+08:00

At some point of time.. i felt that i shud stoop to her level and 'attack' her online.

Write stuffs and shame her.

like wat she did.

Dissing me off.

Wrote her whole escapade on blogs.

But my 'saint' side says no.

Y shuld i?

i noe i am i m better.

SHe is de one is the losing end.

Gave so much without any returns.

Wat shud i do..?

Think for her? Or against her..?

i seriously dont noe..

NANA

2008-07-22T10:23:00.002+08:00

NANA:

This post is for u. I noe u do read my blog.

So listen up..

watever u r dng..

i tink its childish.

U wanna b with him,

go ahead. I thynk both of u deserve each other.

Bkoz both of u r sluts.

He broke ur heart koz u met too late?

I dont thynk so.

I noe u put on ur shoutout that the lovemaking sessions were great.

I am glad u enjoyed it.

However I seriously advise u to go for a check up.

U arent the ony one.

U arent the ferst one i caught.

U dare to say things online. On blogs.

Say it to my face, if u dare.

Instead of checking out me on friendster and other mediums.

I am the winner.

a twist in the ending

2008-07-20T12:03:00.002+08:00

i serioisly tot dat i ould start anew with him

wven knowing that he told me lies over and over again..

i had dis feeling in my heart that just wont go away.

true enuff..

i did my own investigations

my werst nightmare came true

i dont tink i can take it anymore.

i believe that going on our own way will d b the safest for me.

i noe that the kids will b damm affected.

but i have to dis.

Please God, i need all the energy and patience to go thru this.

Friends..Families.. This time i really need ur help to get me thru this.

tyred

2008-07-04T11:39:00.002+08:00

after mths of stress and heart break..

dis may be de end to it.

yes, me and him.

We did go for a divorce.

Yes, he did lafaz it.

We had to wait fer 3 mths b4 becuming official.

I dint want to b part of his game.

I gave up thinking wat he ws thinking.

Wat he really wanted fr me. Fr our family.

Plus of wat he did to me.

I took the kids away to my parents.

Never did i tell my family. Not even my mom.

Y?

I dint want them to b stressed out abt me.

And..

I dont want dem to think badly of him.

DAts how much love and respect I had for him.

Like i said..kids were affected.

When they saw their father.. u could c how much their face light up.

I became so sad to see my kids in that situation.

A mom could not do anything to provide their happiness.

After many mths of being down..

After a sudden family meet up.

I decided..

I live for ma kids. My Kids are my life.

I'll go back to him.

We decided.. to THROW away everything. With God's will this will b the last incident.

Close this chapter. We wont forget wat had happened and It would b jus memories.

Its my first day back with him.

And many more to come.

Friends and families.. it would b a difficult journey for me.For us.

Help and guide us.

Thank You.

ATTENTION

2008-07-03T10:03:00.002+08:00

Listen up..

To all dos hu drop very encouraging lines..

I thank u fom the bottom of my heart.

I m trying to b strong for ma kids.

I have been through hell.. well and back.

My kids are very affected without their father.

Very emotional.

I am trying to c if there is anyway i cant werk things out with him

KIds need both parents full attention and love to b the best that they can.

i wanna provide stable place call home for them.

Yes.. I noe i m not working. But doesnt mean i do not contribute to the household.

Yes.. i noe i may not b that educated.. BUt i noe the difference between right and wrong.

Yes.. I noe wat he did was rong.. But i have to do something about my family and kids.

I have got support from friends and families. and i still nid it. The next few steps wouldbe more difficult dn ever.

To dos hu read my blog.. or friendster or multiply or emails..and 'report' back.

So be it. If u think wat she did was right.. go ahead. Go support her.

I dont care.. Koz i noe in de end.. hu will b in the losing end.

I noe i ant pretty or georgeous..or 'hawt'or wat u call not perfect.

but get dis in mind.

I AM THE WIFE.

I aint ashamed to say dat i did cry a river or even an ocean.

Hu wouldnt rite? To noe that the person u love..is having an affair.

Hu wouldnt hate the 3rd party right?

But i always believe..

Wat goes around comes around.

hanging my dirty laundry

2008-06-29T14:00:00.002+08:00

Ok.. i noe i havent update.

but dis is de ultimate post u'll get fr ma blog.

Me and him are kapoot.

He got another person.

Kids r affected especially ma lil gerl.

She now craving fer attention.

Acting like a small baby.

Boy kip asking where is he.

I told dem dat he was outta town.

It was so difficult for me.

I was so devastated.

However... after mths.. i finally got her pics.

And guess wat?

I felt better!!

U wanna noe y?

i Can email u de pics..

SO drop me ur email..

i will b glad to show His CHoice.

:P

spring cleaning

2007-11-29T11:19:00.000+08:00

i was cleaning up de house. throwing away stuffs. rearrange stuffs. found out lost items. found indra's stuffs yg never been used too.

nak kip, too many things in the house. so i decided to gv away.

who want a nike sling bag? its new, never been used. Brown and can b use for laptop.
Big Nike at the front.

BUT

with a twist. U got to earn it.

Email me with the latest gossip abt our local celebrities. Can b actors/actress or singers, atheletes. Dont care hu lah.. as long its someone popular.
I want it to b damm juicy. Possible.. with pics or footages.

email me : juicy_gossip@excite.com

I will upload the winner or the juiciest gossip on Saturday, 1st Dec nite. B4 midnite.

So peeps... spread the word. I want u to win something!

Lions!!

2007-11-18T22:12:00.001+08:00

guess wat??????

Sg drew 1-1 wit Tajikistan!

so Sg r gng to de next level in the World cup~!!!!!

Ferst tyme in history lah!

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

hubby coming back on Tuesday.

Pray with me fer his and de rest safety k?

Its gonna b more den 24hrs flight...

hols cuming!

2007-11-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

hubby left yest nyte fer takijistan.

a country hardly heard.

need to take 3 flights.

sg-dubai. (3hrs transit)

dubai- istanbul. (10hrs transit)

Istanbul - Tajikistan.

coming back on monday.

i really hope dey win.

Its gonna b gd fer everybody.

ELSA
Its her last week in sch.

Den hols till 1 Jan.

Otak cramp planning out de days fer dem.

1. Swimming
2. Play Kite
3. Fishing
4. cycling/blading
5. Botanical Garden.
6. A short hols.
7. picnics
8. Sentosa
9. No more ideas!

Anyone got ideas? I need sumthing to do

(prefer outdoors, due to iLyas tak bleh duduk diam)

dat both kids can enjoy.

So if anyonde noes... pleeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaasssssse

tell me!

p.s Hope HUfc wins dis fri game!

end.beginning.past.future.

2007-10-30T16:42:00.000+08:00

its not end of yr yet, but i oready made new changes in ma life.

this may be a shock to everyone.. even to me.

i've decided to pipe down on my partying.

YESH! tak bedek.

i've always luv to party.

dari dulu sampai skrang.

last tyme after party, tak ada energy..

oso no prob. now, cannot.

i felt so guilty towards de kids when my battery

never recharge like dat.

sumore, their batter never end plak tu.

so, i told hubby dat i wanted to party hard, one last tyme.

den never to look back.

therefore, last sat...

Halloween party.. i partied with ma frends.

punya semangat, i actually ordered a costume onlyne.

since its gonna b last kan.. so might as well all out.

fr boat quay to st james.

den met hubby with his frends der.

he oso decided to follow ma footsteps.

party hard fer 1 last tyme.

i enjoyed maself.

now, i can fully concentrate on ma kids, my hubby and self.

instead of hu tu call dis weekend for parties.

to all dos hu made it happened last sat..

Thank You. Fr transportation, to beverages, to security, to everything ah.

For all dos hu didnt make it..

its ok. Ur loss.

For those hu never manage to party wit me.

too bad. koz i was the party!

hehehe..

so.. now.. its baby steps for me again.

wish me luck.

jus a lil.

2007-10-01T02:49:00.000+08:00

hubby left fer doha just now.

cuming back ony on de 10th.

of all tymes, kids both fever.

just bkoz daddy gng on a soccer trip.

tak fair kan!

de ting is, we had a huge arguement on fri..

however,we did settle it..

but now.. aiyoh.. i so de melodrama..

miss him lah!!

mcm nak naik itu emirAtes go der!

arghhhhh!!

how? can getcheap tics anyone??

a new beginning

2007-09-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

After so long of not updating..

I feel like dng so..

Many incidents had happen.

Some cause me to go berserk...

Some caused me to deplete my bank account..

Some caused me to b so high till i ferget abt everything.

Watever that had happen, i m so glad that i still could b a mother to my kids..

To perform my duties the best that i can. I may have not done the best at some times.

But i learnt dos mistakes.. I hope and pray i wont repeat.

One thing for sure..

they r my pillars.

Oso they kasi my darah naik very high at times!!!!

neway.. lil update on ma kids.

elsa oready turn 4.

Just started sch.. Hanis Montessori.

Allhamdullah.. she is coping well.

Ilyas, insyallah, starts next yr.

ahhhh... when both starts next yr.. den i can have some time

for myself.

I m planning to take up some courses..

I'm praying hard that indra would do well in his career. Oso fer opportunities come knocking fer his to persue his dreams.

Neway.. during the mth of ramadhan, which is ard the corner.. i would b damm bz.

Me, Sis-in-law and granny in law we r dng catering for Masjid Kampung Siglap..

This would b the 2nd yr. Since granny and sil quit their job due to several reasons..

we r dng on a big scale dis yr.

Nid to find xtra pocket money! hehehe

SIL is even dng kueh to b send out to several shops..

we r oso dng skueh raya..

Ni kirakan nak bolot semua ah..

Hopefully.. everything will flow smoothly.

To all Muslims.. happy fasting.

To a special person.. iF u r readind this,

I need time to heal. Love is forever.So r the scars.

I will try to put in the effort.. but the thoughts r still der.

It can never b de same. But it will b better.

Effort.

On ur mark?

2007-08-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

havent been onlyne much.

been working on something.

required so much of my tyme.

today.. i jus happen to blog hop.

i landed on a friend's blog.

well.. i knew she had a misunderstanding with another blogger.

and the other blogger.. happens to b my friend too.

frankly, i dint like to read or hear wat dey wrote abt each other.

i believe that trying to expose each other fault online, isnt de best way to solve

the matter. I read that now, both sydes r resorting to sueing each other.

Can u believe it? and de ironic part..

they use to be friends. close friends.

I believe that they need to meet up. talk. and try solve dis matter nycely.

Of koz each syde would fight hard to claim that their innocence.

Let me jus say.

BOTH at FAULT!

Friend A got her syde of story.

Friend B got her syde of story.

Lastly, there is de truth.

Babes.. this thing has been going on fer far too long.

Do something. Stop blogging about it anymore.

These hoppers just wanna c u guys fight.argue.

I just wanna c u guys at peace aight?

Hopefully, the next tyme i read either blogs.. u guys got nyce thing to say.

Take care babes.

Boo!

2007-07-15T04:46:00.000+08:00

I really believe that there are too many Rebecca Loos & Razifs in this world.

Razif is a lawyer who stole 10million from his clients. Den he took the money, left his wyfe and kids for a woman in Thailand. Wife left with nuthing but shame, Confusement, heartbreak and problems.

Heartless isnt he?

Rebecca Loo, the ultimate biatch hu work fer Becks and ends up snogging him! Even noe that he is married with kids. Becks.. my gawd, his wyfe is such a hottie. Yet he snogs up with another lady without thinking of the consequences.

I tot this ony happen in other parts of the world.

Not realising, all these do happen! even in simple Singapore..

Case 1:
Lady been married since she was 22. He was 23. She was there fer him, during ups and downs. After a yr of marriage, got bb boy. They were happy family. He did well in in his job. He was paid well. A high-flier. Tried fer a gerl. When de boy turned pri 2, she gave berth to a baby gerl. Few mths after the birth, guy had an affair. She left him.. bringing the 2 kids with her. Years of marriage...down de drain.

Questions:
1.What was the guy thinking?
2.What did the biatch have that the wife didnt?

Case 2:
This couple recently got married. After a few mths into marriage, they found out that she was pregnant. Thet were happy of koz. However, the pregnancy was abit problematic. The husband started to drift. He tok abt it with another lady hus oready married. In the end, dey had an affair. The other party husband was devastated. Ony person hu doesnt noe of the affair, is the wife hu had given berth to a beautiful baby.

Questions:
1. Do these people noe that wat ever actions dey take doesnt ony affect the partner?
2.Y dont dey try to tok to their partner 1st? Try to werk things out b4 asking a 3 party fer help?

I am no expert in relationships. I do have problems on my own. I just dont understand y ppl get married and end up having affair and a divorce in tow.

It hurts their partner and can also cause problems fer de kids(if they hv any).
Not only that, having multiple sex partners, STD can easily b transmitted. Apart from the broken heart finding out that the partner is having an affair, finding out bkos if the partner's infidelity, the victim suffers fr STDs.

Dah jatuh ditimpa tangga.

To all out there.. in any relationship.. Please think b4 u do anything. Wat u r dng, that moment of folly, can cause a lifetime of regrets.

stumble. fall.

2007-07-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

i fell for the ferst tyme.
i stood back up.
Slight pain.

I fell again for the second tyme.
I stood back up, with difficulty.
With much pain.

I fell for the third tyme.
Shoud i stand up again?
I dont even noe if i have
the courage to do so.
I fear of falling again.
SHould i feel the pain?
Or should i jus lie down?

I am dire state.
Confused. Pain.

Is morphine the answer?

simple english

2007-07-08T11:29:00.000+08:00

yeah.. i noe. my English not powderful.

Yes. i write down in simple, freaking simple English.

Or maybe Singlish.

a Language, all Singaporeans can understand.

Without any difficulty, i hope.

However simple my English is,

I AINT DUMB.

Assumptions are just not the answer to everything.

DOnt ya agree?

Coincidence?

Too much to consider one.

Watever it is, I do not wish to continue with this.

All dis "attention" is too much for me to handle.

Never went thru all dis b4.

Like i've said..

If there is anything u wish to clarify,

I am very sure, u do know how to get to me.

In simple English,

I am making an exit out of dis lil drama.

U take care. I hope dis ends it.

Fyi:
I am a simple girl.

I am a simple friend.

I am a simple mom.

I am a simple wife.

Simplicity.

Peace.

curious...

2007-07-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

OK.
abit too dramatic for me oready.

dis entry is dedicated to a certain blogger/reader.

I believe she found my entries abit dumb.

She is 'shooting' back non stop. and the 'target'

is me.

I strongly believe 'blogger' may hv misinterpreted

my contents. I did repeat no pun intended. I dint mean to

demoralise anyone. All i said..

"i do have a prob with my height"

"i've always wanted to be a stewardess/cabin crew"

"many of the Wags are or use to fly"

In wat way.. my previous contents have caused "blogger"

to b pissed?

i dint say dat there are criterias to b a Wag.

If there were ever standards set to b a Wag..

I wouldnt b one.

Yes.. i noe i aint perfect. and i aint ashame to say it.

Listen, if u wanna blow dis into a full scale drama online,

i cant stop u.

But dont u tink its a bit too childish?

if u found wat i wrote was wrong and rude, u culd have told me straight.

you r a woman with brains.. not some gerl in sec sch.

I oso believe dat we noe dat each of us exsist.. however we have never communicate

in any way. I oso do not noe y are u so against me.

Lastly.. i sincerely apologise if, watever i had written had caused anyone to b unhappy.

however, i do believe dat my contents were harmless. Not meant or targeted at anyone.

Watever i wrote was solely on me or ma family.

i repeat again.

no pun intended.

AIYOHHHHH!!!

2007-06-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

dint noe some ppl found ma previous entry ridiculous..!

well.. its not all sense.. but not totally merepek!

all i said about the Ms Singapore contestants..

i did say some were pretty leh! of kos dey got courage..

or just no mirror at home!

hehhehe

neway.. i did say no pun intended

i got a reply saying..

"kalau ko pikir... dorang kekek..

asal ko tak participate?"

many reasons

1: NO HEIGHT!!!!!! dey specifically said height is a requirement!!!!!

2: dey.. i m married??? no more miss!!!

3: i dowan to b on de receiving end. let me jus kekek at dem.

plus...

i owned up.. saying dat HEIGHT does matter to me.

so wat?? it matters to me.. never kacau u waT?

frankly.. i dont care wat u tynk.

all i care..

is me..myself and elfa.

plus ma hubby n kids n family n friends.

did i miss out anybody?

p.s. Future Ms Singapore Universe, if the judges ask u wat local dishes would u recommend to tourists.. Dont reply sushi.

aLso: Future Ms Singapore.. aLL de best! :)

I GOING TO SAY IT AGAIN.... NO PUN INTENDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

years.

2007-06-22T18:45:00.000+08:00

iLyas oready 2.

eLsa oready 4.

Been Mrs for 6 yrs.

now.. i need to change the number 0 to

some other numbers..

of years i m in a job..!!!!!

my gawd.. i need to get myself a job.

an interesting job hopefully.

actually.. I've always wanted to b a stewardess/cabin crew.

At least i can b part of the WAGS.

hehehe.. no pun intended.

but 70% of WAGS are or were fr flying.

Too bad it can never happen to me..

too short and fat dah deh..

SOmetymes, when i go to airport for makan or fetch Indra,

n i see ladies in their uniforms..

Doesnt matter from which airlines..

Jeles seh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

height is actually big issue in SG.

Nak jadi police.. need height.

Wanna b dancer.. got min height.

Wanna b prison officer oso!

New Paper Face.. oso need height.

APa tah lagi with Miss/Mrs Universe.
(dis part farnie.. kos dey care so much bout height, looks isnt an issue)

Hey.. i m not saying dat all de participants dont have looks..

Some does..

So... The ony thing dat i would change bout myself ( if i can!) is of koz..

MY HEIGHT!

Neway.. I repeat.. NO PUN INTENDED.

:P

Totally not interesting blog.

2007-06-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

Yup.

i noe. i hardly update. My blog aint got spice.

No gossips. and my latest updates bore ppl to tears!

i believe.. de ony ppl hu does hu blog hop to ma site..

are de isomaniacs. cant sleep? read her blog!

:P

i was scrolling thru some fwens blogs..

OMG!

theirs.. SUPER interesting to read!

ppl dont hop to these sites. They practically run!

my blog.. nak jejak 200 org pon susah..

dorang nyer..

Fuyohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

5k ppl read k!

dont play play!

their stories.. better de TCS!!!!!

REaLLY!!!!!

some of their entries made me laff. some made me ponder.

one thing fer sure.. i noe dat my blog aint interesting..

but my everyday life.. is an adventure.

i dont care if ppl dunno abt it.

all i care.. i enjoy every second of it..

watcha think?

P.s. Ma gf is getting married in july..

at last!!

Congrats!

Now.. i wanna embark on ma latest adventure.

LaLa Land on de CLouds.

ZZZzzZZzZZzZZzzZZz.

Nuts.

2007-05-17T01:41:00.000+08:00

i m a self declare fanatic of korean mushy movies/dramas.

cant stop watching dem

once i ever over spent my monthly budget..

for these koreans vcds/dvds

Korean movies: when dey r farnie.. freaking farnie.

when sad.. damm sia.. i cant stop myself from crying.

hubby once said: oi.. tengok citer ni pon bleh banjir ke?

i simple love em!

i just fynis watching the true love of a royal prince.

18 vcds.

in a day!

i dint realise dat its almost 6... in the morning!!!!!!!!

i kept wwatching in.. cant stop cause i wanna noe de ending.

giler kan?

citer dier best.. a gerl torn between 2 men.

and it happened dat dis 2 r step brothers hu dont even noe dey r related.

their father sick.

gerl loves both of dem. doesnt noe which one to choose.

guy A mom told her to move away. let dis 2 guy b brothers.

with her ard.. it would ony strained their relationship further..

very drama ryte!!???

i loike lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

neway.. dis story i really like koz de actor/actress acts very well. can feel their feelings.

i tynk i shuld go do some acting for spore dramas.

den i can be de...

DRAMA MAMA!

meant tyme.. let me act out in my imaginations.

weekend.

2007-05-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Hubby had a game on thurs.

won. so the team was rewarded with the weekend off.

Dad took fri,sat,sun and monday off!

Padahal.. hubbby yg main.. dier yg semangat ambik off.

So.. fri after hubby's trainin..

i brought both side family to bowling.

After so long neva play..

it was super fun.

Den sat was another family day with both syde.

Agn.. i brought dem to Sentosa.

Dis time.. hubby parents and grandma followed.

After a short dip at the beach..

I brought dem to De LUGE.

It was a first time experience fer all.

Guess wat.. even granny took de LUGE!

Gerek gila beb..!

Except for Mr. Daud.. he dint take de ryde koz he was afraid of the skyryde.

Den after dat.. dinner at vivocity.

Then... on sunday morning..

eLsa and hubby went out secretly in the morning.

Got me 3 red roses.

Hubby let me sleep in abit later.

Elsa woke me up by shouting..

in 'org pekak pon bleh dgr voice'

Happy mothers day mummy!

wat a way to start my morning.

:)

Was a tyred weekend.

But it was all worth it.

Thanks to hubby.. kids and family.

i Love u guys.

days

2007-05-04T16:49:00.000+08:00

Been staying at my mom's place for the past few days.

NO!

I dint fight wit indra..

:P

We slept here kos hubby sent de car to workshop.

I dunno wat else he does to de car.

Had to borrow parents car to move ard.

My mom's place has a pc and a lappie.

Lappie belong to sister.

The pc.. sux big tyme.

The pc is just fer ma parents to play games.

Its freaking dificult to access to certain websites.

yupp, Mr Saman and Mdm Dalila..

DEY r HOOKED to pc games.

Lappie plak.. sis brings to sch.. even when go out.

Therefore.. i culdnt blog.. even if i wanna!

And there was a lot that i wanted to say..

isk..

neway... summary.

went Sentosa,agn, last weekend.

stay fer just a while koz it was freaking hot and hubby wasnt feeling well.

Wanted to play de rides.. spoil plak.

so went makan at vivocity.

Daddy's berthday coming. Dis sunday. Yup.. on mummy's day.

Hubby oso got game on de same day.

Basically... dats it.

Oh.. one more thing..

my HAIR... still SUCKX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bad hair day=mths!

2007-04-30T14:44:00.000+08:00

too much too think.
told hubby i nid to go fer a haircut.

sat.. after sending gerl to ballet..
went to dis hair saloon.

Told de freaking ladee..
kep the length. Dowan thin on de bottom.

Also told her to help me pick color.
Asked her is de color i chose

Would suit me.
She said.

"DIs one ah?"
"can..the couror can suit ur face leh"

so i said ok.
3 hrs laytah.

i almost died of shock
i would love de color if i was 14

A die hard fan of ah-lianism
DIs color would suit.

Hair.. disastrous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My crowning glory..

Now looks like..
CRAP!

stooopid weekend.

dammmmmmmmmmmmmm

now self esteem = 0!

Letter from Lawyer

2007-04-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

Hubby sought help fr a lawyer weeks ago..

We wanted to clear some stuffs..

Not among ourselves.

With others.

Few days after soughting her(lawyer) services..

we received a call from the other party.

Explaining about the situation and apologize..

Like I've wrote in the previous post.

Yesterday, we received the conformation letter.

Hubby said its up to me now..

whether to continue..

or just chuck this incident at the back of my head.

frankly.. i dunnoe wat to do.

I m still angry over wat person wrote. Deep down.. i feel like giving person a tite slap.

PERSON...Your partner did apologise to me..

I.. Its I who made the call to you cause your partner told me too.

Your explaination? nuthing.. dunnoe.. crap.

i've yet to get a proper explaination to why you did wat u did.

Like i said.

Its your fault.

U answer for it.

Not your partner.

They are going to the next level of their relationship.. very soon.

If i go on.. the partner would b sad.

If i dont go on.. i feel freaking angry.. sad too!

haizz... i give my self till end of the week before i make the decision.

Till den..

My job is to raise my kids the best i can.

To be the best wyfe i can b.

and Clean.. cook..

hopefully.. rewarded wit a nyte out :P

Cheers ppl.. with weekend ard the corner.

fer fun

2007-04-23T02:36:00.000+08:00

1 HOUR AGO: Watch tv
1 DAY AGO: high
1 YEAR AGO: fat. still am
I LOVE: hubby.kids.family.him
I HATE: LIARS!!!! Feedofyles.
I FEAR: Him. The ALmighty..Dogs.Enclosed Areas.
I FEEL: tired.H.
I HIDE: my feelings.
I DRIVE: my hubby up de wall.
I MISS: my grandparents n my frens.him.
I WANT: be clever.rich.thin.
I NEED: money.
I THINK:i'm blur..oh wait..i am.hahaha

First screen name: LaisLaBoniTA
First piercing: ears.
First credit card: oh no.just got.and almost max out!
First enemy: cant recall.
First actor you remembered:

Last kiss: my hubby.
Last movie: dunnoe de title.
Last food consumed: roti Johnny
Last phone call: FadLy Tabrani:P
Last CD played: i cant recall.
Last drink drunk: plain water

SHORT ANSWER..
I AM: elfa
I WANT: complete my degree.
I WISH: to be sucessful in anything i do.
I WONDER: why am i dint wanna study b4
I SING: hubby hates it when i sing.
I CRIED: just nw..citer hindustan
I AM NOT ALWAYS: notty.
I WRITE: nonsense.
I CONFUSE: about myself. past.present future.
I SHOULD: change. be a better wife.

FAV
NUMBER: 24,23,3,13,1,7,16,27
COLOR(S): BLUE!!!
DAYS: everyday is a special day when i'm with you.
MONTH: aug! may,june.april.march.sept.
SONG(S):dis isnt a scene.its an arms race.
DRINK: lemon tea.

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU..
CRIED?: yes.
HELPED?: yes.
GOTTEN SICK?: yes..yest.
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: nope.
SAID 'I LOVE YOU'?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: nope.
TALKED TO AN EX?: hmmm...nah
MISSED AN EX?: hmmm... yah
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: online diary?.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE?: oh yes...oohhh lala..

NOW..
YOU ARE WEARING: err.. birth suit.
YOU ARE: at my mom's place.
YOU WANT: ice cream! ben jerrys please!
YOU NEED: thee..

YOUR SLOGAN:
If it doesnt kill ya. it will make u stronger.

Lost without you

2007-04-23T02:18:00.000+08:00

I know you are near.

Yet i am unable to reach you.

I know where you are.

Yet i am unble to find you.

Fate is what it is called.

Oh..I miss you so.

I just wanna have you.

everyday.every night.every time.

Why does it have to end it this way?

Oh dollars!!!

:P

yeah.. i miss you too.

;p

I love This SOng!!!

2007-04-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

I was gng thru youtube..

stumble upon dis song..

I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dis song! nYce ryte?

enjoy de music..

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Neway... my partay kaki.. litereally hurt her legs.. shoulders.. more!

she yg hurt.. me yg cant party.

so i gotta wait till she is ok.

mean tyme.. i tynk i wanna try gng karaoke.

" aLL my lifeeeeee.. i pray for someone like uuuuuuuuuuuuu"

Sedap tak?

heheh..

Neway.. i was reading a gf's blog.

It seems dat someone bad mouthed her.

It kinda happened to me recently.

I am so glad that hubby understand that watever was being written..

Wasnt true or happened in the past.

He did got angry after de comment got abit wayy off limits.

He called some of his friends asking for some advises.

I m glad that we took de advise.

The comments stop. The person had apologised but the person's love one

was the one that make an effort to come up to me personally.

to apologise. The 'love one' was very sincere... I've yet to feel it from de person.

i still dunnoe whether to retract the actions i have taken.

I just want the person to realise that wat was done..

was wrong.

Frankly.. i dont thynk he feels remorse..even though the love one assured me dat de person does.

Ppl out there... please...

ACT.NOT REACT.

Weekend

2007-03-27T14:49:00.000+08:00

Last Sat was a bLast!!

partied wit old sch mate..

dis was how we looked like in 90's

CLick Here..

Now... we look like dis!

cLick Here

not forgetting...

my partner in crime

A toast to everlasting friendship!

happening weekend ahead?

2007-03-23T18:55:00.000+08:00

Hubby letting me partay dis sat..

1st kos last weekend, my gf tot i was gng out wit her.

she siap oready and was ready to paint de town red,

when she realised dat i culdnt..

as fer normal darah konferm naik kan?

so i told her dat i would paint de town rainbow wit her dis weekend!

2nd

hubby is gng to some meet up..

so i got some free time.

3rd
Last class would b on de following monday.

so kinda gathering b4 exams.

so ..

i m gonna lat my hair down.

but i wont let my guard down..!

hehhehe

neway... happy weekend everybody!

a LiL poem

2007-03-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

Let cynics sneer and critics pick,

This world is bad we know,

But what alot of saints there are,

What lovely flowers grow,

Dark clouds abound and sunshine too,

Just smile and life will smile on you.

This poem makes me smile every time i read it.

Its true, y get bothered over small things?

Let it be.

Smile.

My family is ma life.

I am smiling for them.

Giving in doesnt mean i am a loser.

Its because i cant be bothered.

I actually feel sorry for u.

Koz i noe, u r de one in need.

FOR A LIFE!

Duplicate Accounts.

2007-03-19T14:56:00.000+08:00

Fynd out someone just created a new acct in myspace.. wit my pics.. my children and hubby's pics.

to dat person.. i noe u r reading this.

i dont care if u wanna use ma pic and pretend to b me.

but PLEASE, dont use ma family's pic.

I DONT LIKE IT.

I give u 2 days to take it off.

today is 19th. By 21st.. if it is still there,

I would take de necessary actions for the pics and the acct to be taken down.

RESPECT MY FAMILY.

congrats

2007-03-16T11:51:00.000+08:00

To dos hu r getting married..

Congratulations..

It is a big step.
Take it one at a go.
Look where you are going.
Ahead there may be rocks, potholes. (traffic police?)
They are just obstacles.
Even if u stumble,
even if u fall,
U can rise back up.
It could be difficult,
But there will always be someone
there to help u up..

Luv aLways
elfa

V daY

2007-02-28T01:54:00.000+08:00

I was toking to an old friend few days back.
We were reminiscing about our kentalan days..
Somehow.. the conversation diverted into
the topic, Valentines Day.
How we celebrated it and with whom on V day.

I told her.. During my younger yrs...
I dint celebrate it. She was cursing me left and right when she heard it.

I said it was the truth.

In secondary sch..
I was very tomboyish. There was a time when a frend came up to me and told me...
i LOOK hensem not pretty. If i was a guy, many gerls are sure to go after me.
Thanks babe.. that comment stuck wit me till now..
:P
hehehe

During a trip to OBS Sarawak..
The participants in that trip, all got hooked up
They were in partners.. as in boy with gerl.
A malay boy, from west district..
He said, and i quote
"Elfa.. ko ni leper sgt.. Sebab tu takda org nak"
BAik ah member.. BUt it dint offend me a single bit.
I noe it was the truth.

So secondary sch.. de ony guy i was wit was a mat ganster hu was potek and jln mcm itik.
hehe... mat gangster tak celebrate V day lah beb..

However.. after sec sch.. i learn how to dress up abit better.
I became slightly confident in maself. Take things in stride.

Den i became...
hehhee... what u called notty.
I DATED a few guys at one go.
When one asked me out on V day...
i said i DONT celebrate it...
everyday shuld b a V day..
Padahal... i was afraid i might get caught by another date!
notty ryte??

So i stayed home..

There was one time doh..
This boy name Ash*bl**
Cute and tall.
He came to my place just to pass me flowers..
since i dint wanna go out.
2 sets of flowers!
3 stalks of blue roses.. koz i like da color.
He told me it meant i love ya.
One stalk of red rose.
He said it mean u r de one for me.
Chehhhh!
But we dint hook up. JUst dates..
i heard his married too..

Then there was F**s*L.
He did bring me out fer makan and drinks on V day.
BUt late ah... kedai nak dekat tutup kind late.
He gave me flowers.. and a gift. In a surpryse manner.
Pictures of us in a blue frame. Ocean theme.

The best was F*tr*.
This guy... i really liked alot.
Tall. Sepet. Freaking nyce.
He dint need V day to surpryse me. Always shower me wit gifts.
He put in xtra effort doh on special occasions like berthdays,
Too bad.. he dint wanna go to the next level.

Last but not least.
Indra S...
hehehe...
Of kos lah dis Love of ma Lyfe kan..
Dah kawen..
Dia tak nak celebrate ke..
Dia tak kasi pressies ke..
but i would love a surpryse gift once at least...!
Cant complain!
i Still wanna b wit him.

unless lah.. he celebrate ngan org lain!
BANTAI!

kisses and hugs hunny bun!

:P

P.s. DIs isnt kiss and tell. Jus sumthing i recalled!

just a tot

2007-02-21T02:04:00.000+08:00

i just wanted to pen dis down kos its wat i m feeling ryte now.

Time passed by me.

It reminded me of my love for you

I didnt forget about it at any time,

Its just hidden somewhere in me.

Grateful to you for the time,

the effort,

the acceptance.

For my ablilities.

For my Disabilities.

For my strength.

For my weakness.

For me being me.

You are the fuel,

and my raging heart burns wildly,

just for you.

Anytime.

Anywhere.

Everytime.

A man who finds me beautiful,

in the mornings,

steal naughty kisses,

in the afternoons,

seals my love,

with whispers at night.

That man is the man,

i've spent 6 years married to,

i've trusted my life with,

He is My husband.

Indra S.

ok.. i am BacK!

2007-02-19T04:16:00.000+08:00

i have stayed up all nyte to do ma skin. Hopefully dis tyme i will update ma blog..

i've got so many to say. so many to tell.

but fer now..

i need ma freaking sleep.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2007-01-23T15:34:00.000+08:00

eh.. i am very de malas to update.

will update once i can do back dis skin.

help?

2006-11-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

i m feeling so down today.

i've dis prob wit ma chest.

dey r so uneven in syze.

its like.. one is in cup A

another in cup B.

yes.. very de uneven.

so went to de Breast centre.

doc said.. in term of medications..

nuthing can b done.

and i have to stop breastfeeding.

starting fr 2day!

i dont tynk iLyas would like dat.

Doc said.. only thing i can do is go under de knife.

aiyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

wat shud i do?

i felt even werse.. when i realise.. i gain loads of weight.

how bad can i day b?

maybe i shud buy ToTo tomorrow.

kena.. den maybe can put a smile on ma face.

anyone.. tips?

p.s. IF U TYNK I M TELLING TOO MUCH>> DONT READ DEN! :p

ScaryyyyY!!!!

2006-11-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

JUst now.. put iLyas to sLip..

eLsa.. still wanted to play.

den she played with de room door.

and whamm.. de door shut.

elsa is ok.

only thing was.. ilyas was still insyde de room!

no keys...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!

jadi beLo skejap akoo!

frantic.. called indra home.

he called de locksmith.

i said..

" U BETTER HURRY CUM HERE AH BOSS (LOCSKSMITH).. MY BABY INSYDE ROOM!!!"

When he did arrive.. haf an hr laytah..

ilyas was still sliping.. oblivious to de ruckus.

my flat is on de 16th floor... can u imagine.. how wyld my imagination was??

damm.... after all dat running..

now i m freaking tyred.

p.s THe MOral Of de Story?

CHECK DE DOOR B4 CLOSING!!

PEmaLas

2006-11-21T13:47:00.000+08:00

ni org.. owner of dis blog.. peh pemalas nak update.!
aka akoo ah.

neway.. nuthing much happen.

i am looking fer a job now.

yup.. indra at last relent.

so.. got lubang?

hoLLa me!

wohh

2006-09-11T15:16:00.000+08:00

i never knew dat ppl would use ma pic to create a new acc!

a fren of myne msg me and asked me whether i created a new account in frendster.

i said no.

she passed me an addy..

and voila!

der was my pic.

a diff name doh.

and a whole lot of craps..

den ma sis found 2..

yeah.. 2! other accounts dat has ma pic.

errrr...

buruk nah ke akoo ni?

sampai pakai pic akoo?

isk..

i nid to lose weight... go fr some plastic surgery on ma nose..

correct my eyes and put a whole lot of new breasts.

den maybe..

jus maybe..

i would look more acceptable?

i dunno.

so peeps..

if u do c an acct with ma pic/s

it may not b me.

so if der was/is any misunderstanding.

i apologise.

and to de person/ppl hu created dos accts...

use a better pic please?

at least de one dat flatters me?

berthday..

2006-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

yes..

i've turned 21.

happe belated berthday to me.

:)

upload fotos soon!

Eyes...

2006-08-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

dos hu reaLLy noe me..

Dey noe dat i've got a handicap.

my eyes.

dey always go haywyre..

YES.. to dos hu donnoe me...

i m wat u call JULING.

in school.. i was teased so bad ..

to de brink of...

my eyes falling out of de socket!

got into arguements.. kos ppl

think i was staring at dem...

when i wasnt even looking at dem!!!!!!!!!

sedih kan..?

i was called tok leng. KeRoh.. east and west.

back when i was a pool 'champion'..(kekek)

opponents aka indra, sis, lina, knew my weakness..

when last ball.. dey would stand at where i wanna aim..

and lure my eyes ard.

dey wuld put fingers and sway it ard...

it does werk fer dem.

i would always miss like dat!

Kesian kan akoo?

but todaay the unthinkable happpened..

i was bathing elsa.. aka daughter.

went out if toilet.. den told her to wait fer me on de bath mat.

der was a dot of water on ma specs..

took it off to wipe it..

unfortunately.. she saw ma eyes.

MUMMYYYYYY..! WATS RONG WITH YOUR EYES???? COME HERE.. LET ME CHECK!!

Another sad story by me!

uwerkkkkkkkkkk~

CupCakes fer grab!

2006-07-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

hey Peeps..

ferst tyme i m putting it in here...

usually i do dis fer close frends and relatives.

dey told me to try to fer strangers.

check dem out..

anyOne wanna order.. fer any occasion..

just call me or pm me aight?

This was fer ma niece berthday. Last week..

she turned 5.

I can put other color or figurines of jellies..

Another type of cupcake..

NI untuk pengantin..

Flower power. aLso can b used fer teenagers/kids (gerls) berthdays.
E.g. Flowers.. Fairies..princess themes.

Dis very simple.

can do all type of available colors..

or type of cakes.

eg Choco cake..in de pic..

Vanilla cake.

watever cake u want lah..

Pryce.. depends on de syze of de cupcakes

and de toppings.

KwanG ajar Nye Budak..!

2006-06-29T21:23:00.000+08:00

i was at JUrong point jus now.

Fer Lunch with family.

I dint have much cash..

Nid to withdraw.

However i had enuff fer makan at Banquet.

So after makan..

went to withdraw money..

on de way..

der was dis kid..

selling sum stuffs

fer de benefits of a mosque.

i cant recall which one.

kak.. beli kismis ni. $2 doLLar aje."

i jus said.. "Takpelah deq."

After withdrawing some dollars..

hubby said to me..

'kesian seh.. go ah buy."

so i went towards de kid.

i said" deq.. $2 kan?"

smaLL boy said.."ah ah kak"

so i gave him de dollars.. and took de kismis.

he den sad to me...

"Terima Kaseh CIK!

Wat??!!! kurang ajar nyer budak..

sebelom akoo belik.. step panggil kakak.

Nak ampu lah tu!

akoo dah beli.. dier panggil akoo Cik!

ader ke patut??!!!!!

MaNkok!

Op.. CHecK him Out!

2006-06-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

ok.. dis r some few pics of hubby.

he busted his knee on de 31st of may.

in a soccer match against Malaysia.

so he went fer surgery just now.

ACL..

Rite now.. we r at home.

and he is whining.

Lucky de kids r with ma mom.

if not.. 3 kids with with very short attention span.

ni dier step senyum.. padahal takut.

DEFENCE MECHANISM No.1

ni part touching... he is in so much pain..

de leg dey operated on

RecOver sOoN HuNNy!

oF aLL tymes!!!!!!!!

2006-05-02T10:36:00.000+08:00

daMM...

Indra is not in town.

Dat means partay tyme ryte?

but i CANT!

DaMM again!

my whoLe body RASHESSSSSSS!

i Look Lyke a freanking Lobster.

i wanted to go to a fwends wedding..

had to cancel de Long awaited wedding@!

FarKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

errrrr...

and guess wat dis handsome, young chinse doc at CGH said

nuting to werry abt!

and he dint giv me anything fer it!

nasib baik hansem.... kalau takkkk!

dah lama akoo bantai dlm biLik tu!

Most Expensive?

2006-04-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

HArd werk.

Earned.

spent..

gone.

TRUST.

y issit so difficult to Trust?

i donnoe.

to all dos hu r concern.

i am dng a-ok.

few tings happened.

Boy turned ONEEEEEE!

yeahhhh!

more Notty den ever.

eLsa smarter den ever.

me... fat as ever.

happy day Peeps!

RetaiL Therapy aka One way ticket to BankruPtcy

2006-04-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

it was rumoured dat shopping was a very good way to release stress.

NOT!

i went shopping from Ferragamo...to Dior..to Louis Vuitton...to Bebe..

and more!

aLL de shops i went in.. i invested.

i tynk i wasted money in dis two days..

equivalent to ma everlasting 21 yrs!

but still i feeL crappy.

pssst..

and u noe wat?

i feel freaking guiLty now.

i dint control ma emotions at these shops....

was i very wrong?

instead of feeling bettah..

now i feLt wersE!

Damm~

How do u speLL hatred?

2006-04-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

I've neva feLt so much hatred & anger in me b4..

and de werse thing is.. i cant let it out.

but i noe 2morrow will b de day.

koz i am gonna ease out all de hatred.

nip it at de bud.

koz tommorow is DE END.

GoodBuY ArshoLo!

FarK Off!

GoodBye

2006-04-01T04:17:00.000+08:00

my heart was crushed.

by de one i truly trust.

no werds can ever described

de feelings i felt.

but God has shown de truth,

i am thankful i had pillars

to prevent me from falling.

it will b hard..

it will b painful..

tetapi ku tetap kan bernafas kasih..

all fer de sake of I and E.

GoodBye.

suPah Bored!

2006-03-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

ferst tyme.. after so long..

aLL de kids r asLeep earLy.

even ma famiLy members r asLeep.

DIs shuLd b de tyme..

i take de opportunity to sLeep ryte?

But...

NoOOOoOOoooOoO

i cant sleep!

bLardy heLL!!!

dunnOe y..

isk.. irritating!!

mayBe i am 2 werried bout ma weight?

i am so fLabby.. i donnoe wat to do ah!

anyBody can heLp me?

any sLimming centres nid sPokepersON??

i am so in!

Lazy BuM???

2006-03-28T13:53:00.000+08:00

yesh... i noe.

as fer normaL...

i am de very peMaLas to update.

hardLy anything Happen..

onLy dat..

hubby oredy turned 27.

Boy turning one in abt 4 days.

Lincah kan?

wiLL b ceLebrating 5yr anniversary of getting de haLaL cert.

i pLan to ceLebrate dat day by getting both of us pissed drunk.. check into a hotel room..

i am not sure by de hr or by day.

shag Like no body business...

shag again.

gerL will turn 3 in June.

i will turn 21 again in Aug.

hubby leaving fer maldives/male soon

mean tyme...

anyOne wanna cLub? chiLL? date?

KeKek is Farnie

2006-03-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

MISS UNIVERSE SINGAPORE?

muKhahahahhahahha....

Dats aLL i got to say.

BITCH..

2006-02-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

u wanna noe hu is a reaL Bitch?

pLs read today Straits Time..

under Home Section..

abt the Step Father moLesting his step doter.

PLEEEEEase Read wat's de mothers's reaction.

SHE IS A FARK*Ng BEEEEEEEETCH!

Ponder... Wonder... Is It?

2006-02-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

yesh... i've been a lazy gerl

i dint update me blog.

was super lazy cum super bz.

nuthing much really happen thruout dat period.

however.. i do have sum stuff to write now.

and it all happened today.

ferstly...

elsa isnt in town.

she went kL..with ma parents and sis.

nak gi cLubbing Lah tu.

she will b back Laytah doh.

so i am stuck in Sg wit de 2 beberds.

big berd got training just now..

so i brought small berd out to get big berd's V gift.

Big berd wont b ard on dat day.. so had to get his pwesent earLy.

i tried to take small berd on de MRT.

it was a disaster.

Nope.. not bkos of ma small berd.

Bkoz of de other commuters!!!!!!

dey r FARKING irresponsible.!

dont queue. dont care. just push...push

Pushhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

here i was trying to push ma pram towards de escalator..

here dey r pushing me ard! Literally!

ArseH*Les!

2ndLy...

i notice dat der is a new trend in town.

fer de gerLs...

Wearing a curtain as skert.

de boys wearing de cap as high as dos mats/Dwugs/rockers/kentalans.

WTFish?

i told big berd.. maybe i am just getting wiser, not oLder fer dis fashion statements.

true?

i dunnoe..

fest on me

2006-01-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

hear r some pics of me latest pic.

wat ya guys tink?

p.s. indra is back on his trips fer soccer trainings and matches.

therefore....

its tyme to....??

PARTAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

i've done it

2006-01-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

after much tot...

pondering...

asking...

searching...

asking again...

i cut ma hair.

dyed it a color i donno wat.

today.. i conferm dat i look manly.

i told de hairtylist..

i wanna cut it short.

like dis person.

(i brought her foto along...i printed it out!)

yesh..u noe hu u r woman..

he said.. too short fer u.

if u donno how to style it.

u will look to

MANLY

there..

please stay tuned fer de Latest pic.

A new Year!

2006-01-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

yesh... it is oredy new year.

nuthing much happen to me.

DINT go celebrate de countdown.

celebrate just on bed.

WaiTTTTTT!

dont thynk drtty tots ahh!

putting ma kids to bed lah went dey started countdown!

got a few resolutions fer dis cuming yr..

ferst tyme u noe..

1. Save money

2.SHED OFF DOS KILOS

3. Shag sensibly.. i dont lyke Latex.
(dis is a frendly family rated bLOg!)

4. Shag at Least 2ice a day.
(WAT??) joking only...

5. B a better wyfe.

6. B a better mom.

7. B a better doter/sister/frend.

8. B a better Beetch.
(i wanna b de best!) hehehe

9. Hit de ToTo JackPot.

10. ......?

StiLL not sure bout No.10, but nvm..

will update when i noe.

in de meantyme.. have a shagedellic year peeps!

P.S.
I've always been putting humour in ma blog. but dis tyme...

its sumting sad.

a mate of myne had just gone thru a miscarriage.
i pray her fer to b strong.
there is always a silver lining behing dos grey clouds.

PASRAH.

with a bang..!

2005-12-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

haLoooo Peeps..

yeah... its de hoLs.

Its christmas... and almost a new year.

So fast ah? dah one year..

frends getting married -Diet Freak

Frends gave berth - safpirah, julia, lina aka aliyahX...

Frends got attached and detached...

some r looking foward to de new year...

some dread..

watever it is...

it will come if u like it or not.

so let all of us embrace de new year with a smiLe and a positive thinking.

here are some 'movies'.. to perk u up!

HaPPee new year peeps!!

Babe of de Year

Hunk of de Year

Bragging is BAd.

2005-11-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

To: Ms Brag,

i wuLd Lyke to inform u dat bragging is bad.

Dont ya noe dat?

If u showed off once or twice..

ppL wuLd tynk

'oh ok.. cooL ah.. she owns dat..

but if u kip bragging...

Many ppL just get turn wayyyyyyy off by your 'brags'

FrankLy.. i dont tynk ppL care wat u own or wat u want to own.

So wat if othas dont have wat u have??

is it a crime?

is it a sin?

Nahhhhhhhhh!

Do u noe der r ppL out der dat own more den u, got offered more den u

but just kip mum?

u dont?

Tsk.Tsk.

Ikut resmi padi,

Makin isi, makin tunduk.

understand?

anyway.. any news on anyone looking lyke Victor Krum?

Cheerios!

HorNee Biatch..?

2005-11-17T03:49:00.000+08:00

I caught the Long awaited movie of de yr...

Harry Potter and de gobLet of Fyre.

Yes.. with no shame or watsoever...

i do decLare maseLf as a fanatic fan of

Harry Potter!

However.. de show wasnt up to ma Expectations...

was hoping fer more.

GobLet of fyre episode..is one of de most interesting..

with mynd blowing speLLs, terrying tasks, and lots of mix feeLings.

Yet.. de movie dint get to me de way de book did..

Lotsa changes.

However....

Sumting..errr not really thing ah..

sumone, caught me.

It was de Victor Krum

YUMMMMMMMMy!!!

i cuLdnt take ma eyes of him.

i almost ran up to de screen to kiss his lipS!

LUcky me, hubby was siting on de outer syde..

If not sure..HebOh!

he was superdiduper attractive to me.

uNLike Cedric diggory.. he is way too Pinky.

i like dos like abit dark...or abit asian..

BaLd or like a haircut like Krum..

Soooooo MuscuLar u!! not too fat.. not too thin nor too Lean.

abit of fats, at de handles, tite ass is a must doh.

a pLus if u have a must-die Lips.

It is sooooo much betta if u speak with an accent of a

irish/scottish/english/japanese/malayese/russian

and i Like dem HAIRLESS or very LIL hair

i like naturaLLy scented not de BO's ok!

Dats just ma fantasy Lah...

I have bugger oredy.

i am gLad to have him..

p.s. Readers out der..if u do Look Lyke VICTOR KRUM, Let me noe.
*wink*

MUkahahahahahhahahah!!!!!!!!!!

daMM!

2005-11-14T01:49:00.000+08:00

FarKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sumting is so rong with ma pc...

cant log into frendster.

cant log into messenger

aLL caNNot!

Mcm nak hempas ah ini pc.

anyone out der ...with a kind souL..

can teLL me....

Wats Ronggggggggggg???!!!!!

DaMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!

urghhhh!

Pic say 1k werds

2005-11-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

sLamat hari raya Peeps....

Like i said ..

gonna upLoad some Pics...

weLL here dey r.. enjoy!

The nYte of Raya.. i torture me boy to b zorro...

Den Morning raya..ma Brat dah start posing..

tak mcm mami jaruM tu?

den me and ma sis started to fLirt with de digicam..

A famiLy photo...

Forgiving....

2005-11-01T12:42:00.000+08:00

To Mr/Mdm/Ms Anonymous,

I donnoe how u came across my bLog..

I donnoe how u have done me wrong..

I donnoe y u wanna seek fergiveness dis way..

fer me, wat ever misgivings u had ever done..

or anyone had done.. i had forgiven..

However... i cant ferget aLL.

I HATE HASHIM y*M fer buglarising my oLd house.

And i tot u were a fren. instead u were a fiend.

I hate MAs and Car fer their so caLLed frendship!

Frends dont go ard your back and crap abt ya.

and anyOne eLse out der... if u had ever done me rong...

i fergave ya aLL.

UNLESS....

u r sLeeping wit ma bugger.

den i tynk i'll b a kiLLah!!

P.s. Anonymous.. how much would u rate your 'wrongs' in de scale

of 0- 10...?

HaPee DePavaLee! SeLamat Haree Raya!!

2005-11-01T01:35:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is DepavaLi..

haPee depaLi to aLLs.

den THursday is Raya..

SeLaMatttttttttt Hariiiiiiiiiiiiii Rayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

been bz.. buat kueh. cLean Up house. fynding baju fer famiLy.

neway jus now was SLeague NYte... congrats to aLL winners.

wiLL update again after ferst day raya ok?

wiLL upLoad Loads of fotos.. i am sure!

Cheers everyOne.

p.s. to aLL dos i have ever offended, with or without intentions...

MintaK maaf yer??

aiyah...!

2005-10-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

i saw a job posting fer a part tyme teLLer at UOB bank.

Gd tyming.. from 1130hrs to 1600hrs.

i tot y not try fer dis.

Hubby next yr training scheduLe wuld b only in de afternoon.

and since we r gonna move back to our own place...

de kids culd still spend wit de grand parents during dis period of tyme.

i told bugger bout ma idea.

me:"hubby, got job available dat suits your criterias..."
(yes..he has set some rules fer wat type of jobs i can go for, way even b4 i got married!)

bugger:"huh? wat job? y u wanna werk? where?"
(baru cakap sikit.. dier nye questions dah peh bnyk!)

me:"as a p/t teller at UOB bank, and i am trying fer de one at tampines. de timing u sure Lyke one"

bugger:" reaLLy? how long de werking hrs?"

me:"aLah..kejap aja. from 11.30am to 4pm aja."

bugger:" den de kids?"

me:"dats y i try tampines, i can send dem to ma mom b4 heading to werk.den u fynis trainig(7.30pm), u can fetch us at ma mom's place.

bugger:"u try appLy ah. after dat..get or not Laytah can tok."

me:"u Let me werk or not??? den i can reaLLy try appLy. put in effort.."

bugger:"oklah.. u try"

Just now..i tot of expLaining to ma mom regarding ma idea.

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

tak sempat!

b4 i even get to tok to ma mom..

he said to me..

bugger:"B.. bout de job... tak yah ah..."(innocent face)

me:"WHAT?"

bugger:"u just sit home and cook proper meals fer me and de kids. i dowan to sit home with no food. or u to rush kooking food."

He was still raving bout food, children education and wat else i donnoe wat... when i shut off.

Kwang Kwang Kwangggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

i knew dat his approval was gonna b temp. hey.. wats new??

he wuLd neva Let me werk! set so much ruLes... how to fynd werk one???

Chet!

a sad day

2005-10-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

to my uncLe aka yan...

some may noe him as TRASE..

its a very sad day fer him..

his mom passed away yesterday nyte.

dikebumikan tadi siang.

peeps out der..sedekah kan

alfatihah.

i noe dat he wont b reading dis..

and i so much wanted to tok to him just now..

it wasnt a gd tyme, he was distraught..and bz

DIs was wat i wanted to tell him..

uncLe..

i noe u r feeling pain.

de pain was so bad dat its difficutlt to breathe.

but der is no exact werd to describe de feelings.

i noe u feel sad.

but u shuldnt.

no, i am not heartless.

y?

she passed away with loving family surrounding her.

frends and relative were der to mourn fer her..

kos dey noe dey've lost a gd frend, sister, aunty, etc...

she had left 2 wonderful kids and a very loving hubby.

i am very sure dat she's proud of both of ya.

but remember

she has stopped suffering. cease fr all de pain.

her departure will make both of u stronger and wiser..insyallah.

Do u noe dat....My grandma, was in coma fer 11yrs.

B4 she fell sick, she was super fat.

de day dat she died, she was nuthing but skin & bones,

she had bed sores and i was so sure she was suffering.

but der was nuthing she cuLd do.

i was glad dat she passed away.

not bkoz she was a burden.

but i wanted de sufferings to stop.

i hope u noe wat i am trying to say Yan..

Redah atas kepergian nyer.

take care uncLe.

to dos hu wish to leave some werds of condolonces

click below to go to his bLog.

>UncLe